Blurts of Folly

Why I don’t have pets…anymore. June 26, 2009

Filed under: Uncategorized — tracy @ 11:37 pm

(The next few posts will be those I began last year and are just now finishing.  Any similarities between the stories depicted here and those of real life are totally intentional.)

If you’ve read my first few entries, you know I have a few hermit crabs.

Make that, “had”.

Over the course of the last year almost all of the crabs have died of natural causes-old age, whatever.  We had one remaining, and honestly, literally, I hardly thought of it.  A few times a week I would check on him and make sure he had food and water, and then move on with my day.

Well, a few days ago I went to look at our one remaining crab and, well, he didn’t look back.  He just sat there.  Still.  Very still.  I noticed there was no water in his container so I put some in really quick and picked up the crab to put him in it (hermit crabs have to have water and humidity to stay healthy).  There was no response.  This particular crab is a little shy so he hides in his shell when you pick him up.  He wasn’t doing anything.  Hmmm.  I checked the humidity gauge.  Yep, exactly what I was afraid of- ‘Desert’.  It should have read ‘Tropical’.  I grabbed my spray bottle (think paddles for a heart patient) and doused him with water.  No response.  He’d flat-lined.  He just sat there with his dried-up eyes looking at me, asking, “Why?  Why didn’t you water me?!  Why did you buy me when you know you aren’t responsible?  Now I’m dead, and I’m really sad about it.”

I almost cried.  Almost.

When I told the kids that “Peanut” had left the building, only my oldest daughter stopped watching TV to respond.  She said, “What?!  Why?  Why didn’t we pay more attention to him?!  Why did we ignore him?!  Now he’s dead, and I’m really sad about it.”   This conversation sounded eerily familiar.  If I’ve passed anything on to my daughter, it’s my guilty conscience.  That, and my love of simple carbohydrates, but that’s another post…

Okay, so I tell my dear husband the bad news, complete with the crusty crab eyes, and he says, half giggling, “Wow, you make that sound really sad”.  Well of course it’s sad!!  A crab died because of my negligence!  I had to face the  music:  I just don’t have the time or desire (maybe that is the more determining factor?) to have a pet.  My kids would love to have a dog or a cat someday but I just can’t (won’t) add that to what I’m already managing.

Well, maybe a beta fish wouldn’t be so least I don’t have to water them!


Another YEAR????

Filed under: Uncategorized — tracy @ 11:23 pm

I tried so hard to think about blogging. I did. Unfortunately, I didn’t actually write about thinking about blogging, and another year has passed without a post. Sad but true, I know.
Luckily, I have many drafts of blogs I started, well, a year or more ago, and I’ll post those while I continue thinking about blogging. 🙂


I’m back!!

Filed under: Uncategorized — tracy @ 11:12 pm

I just got back from the first of three events of my 20-year high school reunion taking place this weekend.  What a fun time!!  The group was small but sweet.  Our main event is tomorrow night at TJ’s in Roswell, but tonight was for those already in town or who were coming in town early and wanted to grab a bite to eat.   We met at Smokejack in Alpharetta and had some good food (delicious fried pickles!) and great conversation.

I look forward to tomorrow’s events! :0)

to be continued..


Milton High School Reunion 1989

Filed under: Uncategorized — tracy @ 10:57 pm

I’m encouraging all of my fellow ’89 grads from Milton High School in Alpharetta, Ga, to meet for our reunion at TJ’s in Roswell this Saturday night, June 27th, at 6pm. It will be lots of casual fun!! No need to RSVP, just show up!!


Choosing Joy April 24, 2008

Filed under: Daily walk,Faith and Life,Family — tracy @ 11:58 pm

I’ve been somewhat moody lately. I have great days and low days. Even though I know the root of it, and know I have nothing to do with it and can do nothing about it, I somehow still get trapped into a vicious thought-circle and sometimes have a hard time getting out.

Today was one of those low days. The low-day mood comes in waves and generally manifests itself in a sour-attitude more than sadness. I had made it through the whole day and was just about to lose it with my kids (my DH is out of town, which apparently in kid-language means “We have no bedtime!”), when one of them asked if we were still going to read the Bible (we go through a book on the shorter catechism at bedtime). I cannot not read them the Bible! It may have been a stall-tactic (no-question at this time of night), but I did it anyway. One of the children wanted to read Psalms 34:18 because of a song they have been learning, so we decided to read the whole chapter. To save time, here it is for your reading pleasure: (NIV) (For the sake of space I consolidated each verse to one line instead of two.)

1 I will extol the LORD at all times; his praise will always be on my lips.

2 My soul will boast in the LORD; let the afflicted hear and rejoice.

3 Glorify the LORD with me; let us exalt his name together.

4 I sought the LORD, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears.

5 Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame.

6 This poor man called, and the LORD heard him; he saved him out of all his troubles.

7 The angel of the LORD encamps around those who fear him, and he delivers them.

8 Taste and see that the LORD is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.

9 Fear the LORD, you his saints, for those who fear him lack nothing.

10 The lions may grow weak and hungry, but those who seek the LORD lack no good thing.

11 Come, my children, listen to me; I will teach you the fear of the LORD.

12 Whoever of you loves life and desires to see many good days,

13 keep your tongue from evil and your lips from speaking lies.

14 Turn from evil and do good; seek peace and pursue it.

15 The eyes of the LORD are on the righteous and his ears are attentive to their cry;

16 the face of the LORD is against those who do evil, to cut off the memory of them from the earth.

17 The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles.

18 The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

19 A righteous man may have many troubles, but the LORD delivers him from them all;

20 he protects all his bones, not one of them will be broken.

21 Evil will slay the wicked; the foes of the righteous will be condemned.

22 The LORD redeems his servants; no one will be condemned who takes refuge in him.

I took such refreshment from God’s words. I had to confess immediately to giving another day to this seemingly-irreconcilable matter. My childrens’ ploy to avert a bedtime turned out to be the best part of the day.

Going forward, I must choose joy over sadness. Just like loving someone is a choice, I have to choose to have joy in the LORD; not based on my circumstances, but on who I am in Christ.

Tomorrow will be a great day- I’ve already decided.

This is the day the Lord has made! Let us rejoice and be glad in it!


How do I love thee? Let me count the ways… April 23, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — tracy @ 6:01 pm

Have you ever had one of those days when every time you look at your husband your heart just skips a beat? You just want to give him a big hug and not let go. I’m having one of those days and just have to share the love for my man! Maybe it’s the pollen in the air or the Alevert-high I have because of it, but either way, I’m as giddy as a school girl. 🙂

The mad-crush I have on my husband is not new. It’s been reemerging itself for months now. I have always loved him, of course, and on most days-adored him, too. But something about my DH exerting his Biblical authority and standing firm against my wimpy attempts to manipulate him into doing what I want 🙂 just makes my heart pitter-patter (eventually-not right away!). I have so much more respect for the man because he can stand up to his woman! 🙂

So thank you, sweetie, for “telling me like it is” in love and gentleness. Thank you for listening but not succumbing to my whining and complaining. Thank you for not letting me bully you or lead you. Thank you for protecting me. Thank you for being a man of your word. Thank you for being the husband and father God has called you to be to me and our children. Thank you for loving an imperfect me.  Thank you for not allowing my selfishness to direct our family and throw us into unplanned, unnecessary debt (i.e., a house addition)!  I could go on and on…

I thank God for you!

Loving only you..


Give me Words to Speak March 26, 2008

Filed under: Faith and Life — tracy @ 10:01 pm
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The last few days have been really bizarre for me. After starting and stopping a few blog entries, I wasn’t really happy with anything. My husband called me in the other room a few minutes ago to watch a performance of Aaron Shust doing his song “Give me Words to Speak”. I’ve never heard the words to the song (I’m lyrically challenged) and when I looked them up I decided to post them. I offer you an excerpt of Aaron’s words to you today:

Give me Words to Speak

Calloused and bruised
dazed and confused
My Spirit is left wanting something more
Than my selfish hopes
and my selfish dreams
I’m lying with my face down to the floor
I’m crying out for more

Give me Words to speak
Don’t let my Spirit sleep
Cause I can’t think of anything worth saying
But I know that I owe You my life
So give me Words to speak
Don’t let my Spirit sleep

Every night, every day
I find that I have nothing left to say
So I stand here in silence awaiting Your guidance
I’m wanting only Your voice to be heard
Let them be Your Words
Let them be Your words

For me, the take-away from this song is to want more than just selfish desires, to remember that I owe God my life (!), and to let God’s voice to be heard over my own. As “calloused and bruised, dazed and confused” as I am at times, this life is still all and only about God and Him receiving glory in and from it.

By His mercy, may I not waste another moment on me .

May tomorrow be an others-focused day for all of us. And may God’s voice be heard over my own.

Blessings to you and yours.

HT: Aaron Shust